I don’t have all the answers with me. Even for those questions I’ve answered before, I can’t seem to recall them all. But that’s okay. It’s alright to miss a few and you know what? It really couldn’t be a better time saying (writing) this. Perhaps the days ahead of 2011 is going to be about how to be/stay/focus on/try to be happy. Imagine this: for the next three hundred and sixty five (365!) days, you will be all smiles, at peace and full of joy and beaming with energy. And all you have to ensure that it’s achieved daily. I am actually digging the visual imagery of this.
Previously, simply because I’ve seen most of the perfectionist in me take over in most instances, I fail to embrace or enjoy what goes on around me. I forget to stop and just take in the moment. The act of productivity by overdoing it became an acceptable claim to say, “I’m giving my 100%, it should be right, right?”. But like all things in life, there’s a time and place for everything. Just like seasons, time sequence and recently I’ve picked up, food digestive systems too have their time and place for consumption and expansion. While we try to figure out the many different formations and formulations around us, why not I say to myself, just take time to enjoy what’s going on around you.
After all, someone is already managing all this, taken care of beginning and the end. Most of all, He included me in the picture. So why worry? Yet, why struggle with His concerns when you can focus on yours. I don’t claim to know it all, and trust me, I learn so much on a daily basis now. I feel like the more I pick up, the more I need getting picked up and be placed in a role to serve. I do think I’m experiencing the most “unlearning” period of my life at the moment. I don’t know what it is but it’s like the sense of letting go to know that it will be taken care of. To be alert yet assured, sharp yet respectful, focus yet forgiving, and try while existing.
So here I am, ready to go to bed and know that I’ll rest in peace (but definitely wake up tomorrow!) that it couldn’t be a better time to do what I’m doing, to learn what I need to learn, and to serve not those who are needy or in want, but simply those around me from all walks of life. I’m beginning to appreciate even where face time is not as frequent anymore, and new language barrier between a Myanmar and me but using simply hand signs and smiles, we communicate fine.
So I’m unlearning what the mind is teaching but learning what the heart has always believed: Gratitude.
Thank (You).
your entry is an encouragement to me. Thank you and thank Him too. May He continue to be ur guiding star in this journey called life =D